One of the Titles that I have given myself is the Far Traveler. Its because I move from one religion to the next, learning what is needed and then moving on. I really don’t like it but it happens none the less. When I am done learning I always get the same feeling. “You are not welcomed. Move on.” Even if people say that they love my company, I still internally feel like I am un-welcomed. Now I am at the end of me learning about Kemet (ancient Egyptian gods) and again I feel like everything is “club exclusive” to the higher members. The Shemsu all know each other very well, but it seems that the remetj are sort of unknown. I have been on there for just under a year and I know that some people will say “Give it more time.” But this is something that I have noticed about the Shemsu. The connection between them is stronger than with the remetj, even if the remetj are constant posters. I know the reason why. To become shemsu a person has to graduate from the beginner’s class to become a remetj, go through the Right of Parental Divination, and take shemsu vows and get named. I know from personal experience that stuff like that will tie people together, and I know that I am probably one of the few people in the world that it bothers to the degree that I will leave something. I don’t want to be shemsu. So not having the same comradeship that the shemsu have is hurtful. I am a watcher. I don’t post often, because I like to watch the interactions between people and this is nothing more than me watching.
There is no reason for me to stay. So its time that I move on to my next religious experience.